Adrift in the River of Lost Opportunities

Posted: May 20, 2013 in Random Rants
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Have you ever felt like you were supposed to do something but weren’t sure what? Maybe you’ve felt like you were destined for something greater than your current circumstances but are unable to see the signs directing you to your path.  For the longest time I thought I knew what I wanted out of life, I thought I had it all figured out… but then my delusions about the world were shattered. How or why isn’t so important as what I chose to do after.

I never thought of myself as a writer. I never imagined I would write a book until I had actually finished it and submitted it to be published, but that was when I recognized my true calling.  I want to be a wordsmith, a weaver of stories mundane and fantastic.  I wish to touch the minds of those who, like me, may not recognize what path they are on in this life.  But still, even though I have found my purpose, there are times when I feel as though my destiny has left the station without me.  It’s those times when I feel adrift in a river of lost opportunities, having missed my stop along the way.

I haven’t always listened to my heart and am suffering for it.  When it told me to go out and mingle, I didn’t.  When it told me to travel, I was too scared to do so for fear of not having the money or means.  How many things have I missed by not listening to my heart?  Have I passed by my one true love and soul mate without even knowing it?  Has my fear cost me that destined meeting with the person who was going to make my career explode with success?  I don’t know, but sometimes, as I sit in apathetic solitude, I wonder if I’ve missed the landing that would have put me back on my spirit chosen path.

But then…

I realize that the river is wide and has many curves.  There are ups and downs, calms and turbulence, as well as many other stops along the way. Perhaps, so long as I continue listening to my heart, I may return to my chosen path.  As long as I keep writing, I’ll eventually craft the one story that gets me noticed and the puzzle pieces of my destiny will fall into place.  I suppose I have no other choice but to grab the oars and steer myself through the river of opportunity rather than letting it sweep me away.

I may have missed my opportunities to excel, but there are other bends to navigate, new horizons to see.  As long as I have a story to tell, I will traverse the path wherever it may lead.  They say that stories write themselves. New life always wants to be brought into the world and who am I to deny them their existence?

Good journeys.

-K.R. Krause

  1. Tuan Ho says:

    Love that last paragraph Kevin. Very profoundly said.

    Also, how close are you to finishing that next novel?

    • ksquared83 says:

      I honestly have no idea how close I am. I know how I want to finish my book but it’s the “getting there” I’m still working on. I’ve got a good 3/4 of the manuscript finished and have been polishing and re-writing as I go. It’s hard to say how long it will take. :-/

  2. Beautiful. Our paths in life may be direct or winding, we just have to trust ourselves and be brave. Thanks for this post.

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