A Fine Day, Indeed.

Posted: July 30, 2013 in Uncategorized
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Today was a fine day.  Work was relatively easy and free of drama, I received my copy of Firefly on blu-ray from Amazon and, lastly I had my final session with my Therapist.

It was a fine day and a fine end to a journey that started nearly two years ago when I was staring down the darkest reflection of myself. Everything was crushing down on me, my finances, my job, the corruption of the shallow, materialistic world in which we live and the ever present loneliness of not having someone I could share my pain with.  I wanted to escape, I couldn’t take it anymore and in that brief glimmer of destitution I thought with deadly seriousness about doing the one thing I had tried so hard to avoid. I wanted to take my own life.

[cue sorrowful music]

Fortunately, the stubborn glutton for punishment that I am refused to give in.  I must clarify here that I never actually tried to kill myself, I only seriously considered it and being someone who’s empathy and imagination is so hyperactive that I could live out the various scenarios of exactly how I would end my mortal suffering with vivid, almost hallucinogenic detail, I quickly frightened myself out of the dark thoughts and decided to get help instead.

[cue upbeat music of determination]

So I sought out the help of someone who I could go to so that I may express my feelings and, lo and behold, my search brought me to my therapist Alice.  I had never spoken to a therapist before and being the paranoid conspiracy theorist that I am, was somewhat hesitant.  I had nothing to fear though.  She let me speak, vent, rage whatever it was that I wanted to get out and so I did.  After the first two sessions I felt better. All I needed was someone willing to listen without judgement, scorn or pity.  Thanks to her I started attending my writing critique group, which has led to vast improvement in my writing skills.  She encouraged me to take charge of my life both at home and work, and so I did.  I had my ups and downs, but she was there, like a safety net ready to catch me if I fell toward the shadows again.

Today is a fine day, indeed.  I’m going strong on my second book, a full length novel, I have just today scheduled my first book signing at a local cafe in Boca Raton and I am currently in a relationship with a truly awesome girl who served me more white mochas at the Barnes & Noble cafe than I can keep track of.  As of today, my life is exactly how I had hoped and prayed for it to be just two years ago, and it’s not ending anytime soon.

Unless our government kills us all.  But that’s another story for another post.

Today is a good day and I intend to enjoy the hell out of it.  I hope you do so as well.

-K.R. Krause

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